My life in Denmark: June

Again very very philosophic. And toxic, of course.

JUNE

5.6. 

I saw another face of the lake. Again. It was full of people. Swimming, having pickinic, talking, hanging out, ducks around.

The atmosphere was so bright. I felt happy. Content. Calm.

I found out, i realized so many things here.

I got used to living with people so much that being by myself is no longer enjoyable, it just feels lonely.

I have a surprisingly good mood when I sleep more.

One day you are happy, the next day you are the king of Yemen.

Sometimes the world is so bad the only thing you can do is to drink spinach.

Im not sure how to feel when a belgian guy randomly says „pozor pozor spadl most“.

Me and Iulia went to Lidl. It was quite good, except that on the way back it rained so much we didnt think we could get back. We ended up hiding in an elevator in the trainstation. Oh, and Iulia’s phone broke. That’s how i got the job of her alarm clock.

On Thursday we played team building games. Also we presented our template and shared our feelings about maxi innovation. So I was honest. I said there is always someone (guess who) who doesn’t like what we do. We were confused in the begining because of that and because of people giving us different information about the task. 

im doing my best to be nice.

Then we were drawing each other. ++told me that eyebrows are one of my best features. Including my personality features i guess. hhh

+++said he knew about me and +++since middle of february. Cool. I didnt know about us that time, but... cool. xDD

Vykydla jsem si džem do klávesnice a teď se mi blbě mačká ě.

13.6.2019

We made a home made bubble tea. Again. Cuz someone didnt put it to the freezer before. Not gonna tell who.

My random sentence „I need to shape my thoughts“ got noted by a teacher.

„Sometimes I really wonder what’s wrong with them.“

„Danish people?“

„Yeah.“

17.6.2019
Today we made the test presentation for the social entrepreneurs who gave us presentations before. It was supposed to be a videochat, but because these world’s best entrepreneurs don’t understand the modern technology, us young hopefull folks, solved the situation by airing the presentation live through facebook and then calling them for feedback.
It was actually embarassing to talk to them, because tbh they taught us nothing and then asked „what did you learn from this“ and their whole feedback was basically „it was ok, can you promote our GGW more? can you offer them our products?“ I was quite disapointed in them, cuz I thought they actually care about things, but it seems that money is number one, then is a huge gap and then comes everything else. So I could not really bear the emotions, so I refused to answer what did we learn since my answer was honestly „nothing“ and confronted them about the promotion saying it was far not a part of our task, which was true. This way I kinda made mad or uncomfortable almost everybody, but I did not care at that time. I know social entrepreneurs are still entrepreneurs and should care about money, but not only about money, you need social skills and at least pretend you care about people, so their attitude kinda outraged me. I could make up some fake things I could have learnt, but... what is the point then? To stay sunny and smily? I might not be the nicest person in the world, but at least I'm not a liar.

++came up with a thing that we will write notes for others as „goodbye letters“ or so. Nice idea. But actually it was quite difficult. I mean, people I like know everything, because i tell them nice things all the time. People I dont like – dont wanna write for them. So only the people in between are lef. But where’s the line for who to write and who not to?

(2.10.2019: actually im thinking in the end i chose a bad method of doing it, cuz I tried to be polite and honest at the same time. also my aesthetic choices werent the best. If i was to write it now, i think i would change all of them. but whatever, what happened, happened).

20.06.2019

Sedim vedle + pokoje na terase, nebo co to je, a půjdem do Remy vrátit flašky a plechovky. Jestli mi něco na Dánsku a dánskym systému bude něco hodně chybět, jsou to vratný pet flašky a plechovky. I'm gonna miss u pant B.

I wont miss danish banks and post offices at all. Enjoyed way too much of them.

Today’s exam was really fucked up. Everyone got an A, only out team got a C. Which I was caught by surprise with, because after presenting and discussing I was really proud of all of us, how well the whole thing went. So Im guessing the problem was that we were the last group, so even though we did work for two other groups, we didnt really look like we're bringing something new. Which sucked tbh. Also maybe my "hello, im brutally honest and bitter person" attitute was to blame... wait, it's not an attitude, it's my personality... Well, what happened happened, so we jumped to the lake and left it behind.

The next day we made a movie night. I really didnt want to go, cuz being with people who make me uncomfortable makes me uncomfortable, but in that moment i prefered being uncomfortable and anxious over being alone and anxious. Actually Andy described this quite well. When your friends are friends with someone you don’t like, you dont want to hang out with them, because it makes you feel unhappy. But if you dont, you feel like your friends chose them over you, so you feel alone and like you have no friends.

We watched Gone Girl. I didnt wanna watch so I was writing some more notes, cuz i was tired and that makes me emotional. Now i regret it a bit, but whatever, i already said it above.

I found out ++tagged on the czech bring a bite everybody, except for me. well thanx for the love.

21.6.2019 GRADUATION DAY

Teacher cited my „i need to shape my thoughts“ thing in her speech. 

We had a pie. The best pie of my life. Please, give me more of this, I beg you!

I tried to be social, so I ended up very exhausted. I went to Cindy’s home, fell asleep and then went to give some things to Iulia. Then I helped a bit to Viola, ate, gave Cindy food, took a shower and went to the goodbye party.

I talked a bit to + at first, cuz she gave me icecream. So I told her: I have a secret. And then told her the secret. Actually, she asked me how was my Erasmus, and gave me a look like: yo tell me. Cuz she immediately knew what i was talking about. We shared problems, it was fun.  I also talked to ... many people. But it still felt like not enough.

Everyone hugged everyone. 

In the end, when we moved to the couches in the back, I used +’s shoulder as a pillow, cuz i was really sleepy and noone else was near. I think it improved our friendship. I kinda admire her attitude to things. Like accepting everything in one second with an ok attitude, no big deal.

To sum up some other talks... ++ planned his wedding in Číčany (Říčany) and my wedding in Kazachstan. (Like, why not to let your belgian friend plan you a gay wedding in Kazachstan right.)


So, this is all. Actually not, but all that I'm gonna share. It is a quickie kind of way to share everything, but I dont wanna spend hours on creating lofty sentences full of adjectives with advanced grammatical structures, when there will be only one person reading this and that one person surely wants info, not a kulturní zážitek. Alrighty, if you are still here, comment "Číčany", so that I know, someone finished this, thank you very much, see u next time, when I'll be descibing some other magical experience of mine in a very toxic and sarcastic tone, cuz that's just what I do to the good things, hhh. Cya.;)