My life in Denmark: May

MAY 2019 - toxic and bitter, soriii

On the first of may we looked for a blooming cherry tree. Actually idk if that thing we found was a cherry, but the kiss was so awkward cuz for some reason it felt like a ceremony xD. And then we had pizza that was good.

14.5. 

Today at 7:30 we got a new cooker. Yesterday the electricity guys repairing the lights probably killed it. At least it works better than the previous one.

16.5. 

My toe is bleeding for no reason.

In the morning i hit my arm so hard. Which actually has no connection with the toe bleeding. Or has it?

Idk why there’s a scar on my back.

17.5. Today is a national day for praying in Denmark. So we go to Billund to visit Legoland and Legohouse. Like, what else would we do.

19.5. I really liked Legohouse. I liked to play and create things everywhere, but I was also really tired. I guess im also the only person who ever got hurt in Lego House (i cut my finger, ok) and also my toe hurts as hell, cuz I hit the wall in our accomodation. Accommodation is fun, they have ostrichers and llamas.

I didnt pay for the first bus in the morning, even though i tried a lot, like six times with all of my credit cards, but their terminal didnt work, so the driver just let me go. Which was really good luck cuz how else would I get to Billund?

Legoland was more active, because it is an amusement park and i was „forced“ to try out many things. I mean, when i went there, i thought ok, i should try many things, but i guess i would never try any of those by myself. So many rollercosters like oh my god, after surviving that i felt like a Jesus, loving completely everybody, hugging people around just to hug someone, cuz I was so astonished I survived.

20.5. Today is the damn school trip. The thing about this trip is, that it is completely useless and makes no sense. Like, we arrive there at 2pm, go to see the sea, cook dinner, sleep and go back. Why why. I just don't get the sense.

22.5. So, the trip. Two trips, one bus, thirty minutes walking. Hashtag worth it.

The morning was already fucked up, me and ++ went to warm up lunch in the school kitchen, and then waited in the canteen, where we were supposed to meet. Apparently the meeting last minute moved to the front entrance. Eyyy. Thank you very much for informing us.

I would define this whole trip like „trying not to feel excluded af but failing so damn hard“.

The accommodation was dirty dirty dirty, cold cold cold and i was very very unhappy. I felt like a chicken. Cuz... it looked like a house for chickens.

This trip was so so so damn bad, I really dont look back on it with a smile, but i saw the beautiful sea and had a good talk with some people, since I tried to avoid certain people, so in the end it had at least one good result. Also, for the first time i spoke to ++. Finally i know how her/his voice sounds!

Anyways, i guess i was still uncomfy from the Billund trip, but on this trip i felt really really bad, at some moments really desperate and frustrated. I think there wasnt a moment in Denmark, where i would think so strongly „i so damn dont want to be there, please, take me somewhere else,“. (Wow, even after all this time the feelings are so strong. Haha.) I was just very uncomfortable physically, since I was cold, hungry, tired and I do not like sleeping outside, and uncomfortable mentally as well, cuz Im not really suitable for things like school trips, doing what people want me to do, existing and such stuff.

Also, I refused to cook dinner there, cuz like... i just refuse to do things that make no sense to me. so my dinner consisted of a musli bar and two bites of rice that was left from my lunch. As later i found out, my poor friend++ suffered the most from this action, and apparently the person i was avoiding to was the person who had the biggest problem with me not being there. Wow, complicated people.

Another thing; people say how great fun and romantic it is to sit by the fire and just hang out, well, i have it on a list ofthings that make me highly uncomfortable and unhappy and I don't even know why.

There was one thing that really brightened up our terrible night, and it was ++scared of a spider. ++, ++and ++went inside, when ++ stopped and yelled cuz she saw a spider and refused to let me in until i remove him. I chose the not-going-in option. I looked at the spider and thought that there were people that liked him better than me, and those people happened to be inside our accommodation. In the end ++ took him out, while ++ yelling „im afraid to kill him but im not afraid to kill you!“ Also followed with „IS IT ON ME?“ My reaction was annoyed, but inside i felt amused and happy, because... i dont know. It’s just good to have a friend and someone whose reactions you can predict and get amused by it.

Next day couple of people told me off for it and i was like „ok, yell at me gurl whatev wasnt me“.

Teachers left us alone with tons of luggage again and went by car again, laughing at us again. Yikes.

In the moment we got off the train it started to rain so so so much. We were completely soked, arrived to school, made the school wet, and in the end gt asked: „oh, is it raining?“

But yep, the sea was beautiful and it was one of my most favorite places in Denmark. Also we got to experience some danish traditions,which was nice too. It wasnt all that bad, but it could have been much better xD

After that, the janitor finally decided to repair our shower. Of course that Right before i wanted to shower, when I wore a towel and no pants, cuz the rain made it too wet. They came like five times But they fixed it, it was really good for like two or three days.

I went with ++ to Aarhus to hand in her visa application. Logically, if you want to go to the police station, you check the opening hours of the police station. And then you come, stand in the line, get ignored, only to find out that the police is open, but their immigration office is closed now. Eyy wowo amazing, anyways we had ramen for lunch that was good. Just like... could use better the 200DKK we just spent on the train.

24.5. Yesterday morning i cut out a small piece of my finger, it was bleeding for really long. It also hurt quite a lot.

At school we had loooong but interesting lectures from social entrepreneurs and we also got devided into the maxi innovation teams.

I have to wash my hair with one hand because my finger is cut.

I picked up piano playing.

All the guitars are untuned and also it is quite painful to play guitar with a cut finger.

28.5. A supervising teacher said our task is shit and wrote an email to another teacher.

29.5. 

Today was the czech bring a bite. We worked on that shit for so long, made three pots of dough for bramboráky and then bublanina. Párkrát jsem vykydla brambory na zem a nevim, jak to říct anglicky, aby to plně vystihovalo význam slova vykydnout. We had a trouble with the oven and in the end, bublanina died, since it was rough inside and burnt outside. But if you imagined it was a custard, it was quite ok.

I think i will forever smell like garlic.

When we were about to start, it continued. We could not get it, cuz the card they gave us didnt work, so we went to get another one. That was ok. Then we could not really make the projector or the speakers run, and on the top of everything I found two plates stuck to each other with old food. Huhuhuh.

Kdo může říct větu „Jsem se polila bramborama“?

In the end it was fine, people liked it, it was good, even though i had so rough a headache i almost passed out, but i still managed to be sarcastic and mean, so it could not have been that bad.

To sum up, may was fun, dont mistake my mean humor for complaining. hhh